So, I quit my job teaching percussion private lessons just the other day.
Why? Because I love music and teaching music and I want to do it in a way that feels sincere. I want to be passionate every day that I'm working. I want to have real connections with my kids and I want them to feel the POWER of MUSIC.
I’ve been teaching percussion full time for 3 years. Loving it, and dreading it. Loving the connections with students, watching them grow, and sharing music. But I’ve dreaded some things too.
Why I quit:
I’m done practicing for kids that don’t even enjoy it.
I’m done being a brain connected to another brain, transacting concepts.
I’m done teaching notes instead of music.
I’m done critiquing miniscule aspects that zero people feel.
I’m done letting an antiquated, rigid, ego-centric education model determine my course.
I’m done being gloomy as I teach.
I learned mountains through these 3 years and I wouldn’t trade any of it. Really, I wouldn’t. I sincerely value the challenges I faced. The challenges sometimes made me gloomy. I learned how to make change but more importantly, I learned acceptance. I learned that my resistance to the situation was the real source of gloom.
I’m bursting at the seams to be able to:
Unleash the vast creativity of the kids.
Unlock the inner voice of the kids.
Facilitate growth on many levels.
Connect students with other creative students.
I have barely any income right now, I'm in debt and I don't have anything lined up. I still don’t have a place to live starting August 1. But I'm not worried. I know that if i work hard, work smart, and share what I feel strongly about, things are going to come together in amazing ways.
I don’t know how I’m going to accomplish this. I can use all the help I can get. I’ve been humbled time and time again these last 3 years. I’ve learned that the more I ask for help, the more things happen in ways so beautiful I couldn’t have imagined them.
1 year ago today, I stood in front of 100 of my dearest percussion students. I was saying goodbye to them after 2 years teaching them. It was very hard to leave them, but I felt like I had to explore other parts of music teaching and music making. I was called away from them to Austin, TX. I did not take this decision lightly, and I wanted them to know. I cried when I left those kids, they cried.
I stood in front of them, holding my speech I had scribbled on a piece of paper 5 minutes earlier. I started with a joke, then I told them about my experience teaching them. I showed them what it meant. I showed them the things most important to me. I told them what I value, what I wanted them to value in themselves. I cried like a baby, trying to deliver my speech. After they roared in applause to keep me going I finished my speech with a powerful call to action. “Risk being seen, in all your glory”.
I have never been in the habit of acting for kids. I try to be real with them. I want trust. I practice what I preach. I was risking sharing what I value in life, I was risking crying in front of a room full of people, but I did it cause I felt so strongly that I just simply had to do it. I was taking the risk to be seen in all of my glory.
So now, once again, I’m risking it. I have barely any money, car, or home, but I’m running full speed ahead. I want to find ways to share this spark in me. I want truth. I want passion. I’m going to share music passionately with others. I’m going to show others what they’re capable of. I’m going to be a creative spark plug.